Maybe in what they are saying is a kernel of a truth

sorry. I shouldn’t have said that. I made a bunch of assumptions and I have really strong desire to help people, so I have made a mistake.

I’ve personally studied this personal issue for my entire fucking life

I would also be outraged if some armchair expert or worse an actual expert spew lies towards me and my situation. Even if I can’t offer a solution at least I can be emphatic towards your suffering and your struggle.

I can’t really offer you much other than virtual hug or a prayer to a higher power for a better tomorrow. Take care of yourself as it seems that no one else will.

Why do people always assume I haven’t?

I assumed that you have some sort of nerve pain like your friend and it would be unbearable.

Digestive issues are textbook examples of psychosomatic problems so I am less surprised that they didn’t help you. Maybe in what they are saying is a kernel of a truth but that’s not for me to judge as I have my own life to live and you have yours.

I have high hopes that therapy will help you.

Yeah, you do know what you’re talking about when you say “I am totally clueless”. No offense, but spot on.

I am basically Socrates. And now I don’t know what to do with that lack of knowledge. Maybe I should build a time machine and stroll around in an ancient Greece or study philosophy with my inflated ego. /j

I’ve since not been listened to at all,

Yeah, that sucks.

I have read some years ago tips for women on reddit how to deal with misygonic docs that don’t take problems seriously. The gist of it was to present a story with your appearence that will help the doc emphatize with you (as I remember that was to present themselfs as business woman where illness prevents them from working.)

I guess something similar could be used for drug user that somehow is intepreted as addict.

I am uninformed but I heard from psychiatrist that weed has some negative effects on mental illness.

I would consider stopping weed for a bit, ride on painkillers(? I am totally clueless) for that time and try to get prescription for weed if it’s possible (wikipedia says that it’s legal for medical use.)

tossed out of an ER

I can relate. That was horrible experience for me and only by intervention of my best friend I am still here.

finally did manage to get a therapist, […] So that’s one positive thing

This is HUGE sucess. Congrats! And stick with it for at least couple of months.

Your mind is playing tricks on you where you toss out a possible solutions outright due to buried emotions.

There are a lot of different types of reaources and some work and some don’t.

Different types of Therapy (CBT, EMDR, etc.), group therapy, books and lectures, long hikes, pilgrimages, d&d, meditation, Alcoholics Anonymous, hitting the gym, temp work agency and even more esoteric ones that I don’t reccomend without trying more normal ones. They all are tools that may not work for you but there exists the tool that will work. The difficulty is in finding one that somewhat works and not giving up half way.

Do you want to change? Do you wish you wanted to change?

Reading japanese, living life. Hopefuly I want to be better at overcoming my trauma but that outcome is kinda independed of my actions towards that.

I would do it only if I was organizing the IRL community on the internet that I have direct involvement in.

If there would be new IRL community that need a digital space, (theoritically) I would go around and talk to the lead (or be the lead) and crete a space for the people to use.

Depends on the threat model.

NOAA and others gets underfunded/change of menagement and need to close down open access to stuff.

or

Data becomes illegal to possess and feds start knocking on Web Archive doors.

or

Web archive will do something stupid and will get sued/DDOSed

In only one very unlikely scenario it won’t be availble due to recent events. But still redundancy would be good regardless of recent stuff.

https://wiki.archiveteam.org/

they have an automatic VM that dowloads stuff in distributed manner and uploads to archive.org

Can you judge a work of art by it’s virality? Should you judge by virality?

A lot of times in history artists got recognition they deserved only after their death. When they ware alive they lived in poverty struggling to make ends meet.

There is a lot of internet 1.0 preserved by internet archive that I didn’t get to experience. There are flash games that I would love to preserve and show the next generation.

We wouldn’t have known how Scotts Cawthon games have looked like before he made FNAF if not for the preservation efforts.

as I stated in this comment it’s not really feasible as to ~5s delay that was tested some time ago.

Just remove it with this simple command
rm -fr \

works on my machine

Yes, there are multiple in FMHY megathread. After aniwave shut down I just hopped to the next one.

Thanks @ethanschoonover@mastodon.social for the photo

It’s hard but doable.

There are couple of things that can synergize with each other, so you don’t need to do one thing perfectly, you can make some progress in one and move one to the next one.

step zero: (eat sleep exercise)

eating well will help you sleep and exercising sleeping will help you exercising and eating at regular interwals exercising will help you sleep and burning the food

step one: (become hobbist psychologist)

Read some books: “What happened to you by Bruce D. Perry and Oprah Winfrey” - you can download ebooks from piracy sites

Youtube lectures: “heathy gamer gg” was particulary helpful for me but it has some (IMO) minor controversies and innacuracies. Still VERY helpful to get started.

Seek profesional doctors as the likes of Andrew Tate are also targeting depressed men (all people on the internet are men until proven otherwise)

step two: (emotional awerness)

Develop emotional inteligence. There are couple of techniques there that you will discover in step one That will help you train your inteligence.

Journaling, meditation, etc. are some of them

step three: (discover life and who you are)

this will come naturally after step two. You will need to seek new experiences.

step four: (build life worth living and build your purpose)

[I am at this stage so I can’t really help you much, but everything that I have learned is helping me immensely]

Lunch yourself into gleba.

The day I exercised my freedom and freewill.

I have decided to clean my room and actually went through with it.

The trauma crippled me for the long time and I couldn’t do anything from my own violition. That day it has changed. I am in charge of my own life from that point onward.

(I hoped that it would be better. It’s still murky and gray but at least it’s not pitch black. There is a long way ahead of me)

Terribly or Terrific depending on the context. The landlord sprayed chlorine in my room and made it unlivable, been couch hopping for a few nights. The teherapist I had was terrible and waste of my time. I broke off the therapy with her. The coworker got a flu or covid and I need to cover for him. (yay 12h shifts below minimum wage \s)

All of that forced me to overcome my paralisis of initiation so that’s terriffic.

Secret santa over the interwebs.

You fill out a form with your interest, and some time later you get interests of some stranger. And some time later in December you will send a present to some stranger and you receive a present from different stranger.